Guys, it's 2013.
2012 was a year of many hurdles and life changing decisions for me and I'm still trying to make sense of what being an adult really means but for some reason, I feel like 2013 will be the year where I can breathe just a little bit easier than the last. I feel like the slate has been wiped clean and everything is starting off with a brand new fresh start. I don't know what it is but I feel like 2013 will really be the year for me. I know, it's so cheesy to say that because everyone hopes for it and everyone says it but there's something in the air that's telling me that this year lots of things will be happening for me. How weird is that, eh? Hah, I'm probably dumb for just saying it but... well, we shall see, huh?
In my two years of blogging, I've begun to question a lot of all of this. In the end, I've come to conclude that I need to step back from blogging and quite possibly even twitter and just read. I've really missed when reading was simply just reading. Little did I know how much that sentence would change when it came to blogging. In these 730+ days, it has occurred to me that maybe blogging isn't for me. I am such a bad and sucky blogger and the politics of it has really messed with my head. Some days, I try to remind myself that I blog because I love to read but sometimes even that gets blurred.
Reviews, oh how they are the death of me. I think I might just be too hard on myself for when I write them and I'm probably way to over analytical but they're so hard for me to write. Like, I'll be in the middle of writing one and out of nowhere, these questions start flying at me questioning if I'm writing it correctly or if my structure is okay. I also struggle with whether or not I get my feelings about the novel across instead of just re-summarizing the book for all of you. Also, every time I write them, all of my reviews sound the same to me. Hence, I suck. But you know, it's alright, lol. Before, when I was a relatively newbie, writing reviews came so easy but like I mentioned earlier, the politics and dos-and-don'ts of blogging have really made themselves at home in my head.
Blogging is really a one of a kind thing. It has opened my eyes to so many new things that I'll always be grateful and I'll miss it dearly because it's become like my third arm but if I don't step back now, I'll probably end up hating it and I don't want to come upon that doorstep. I'm not sure if Books Over Boys will be coming back; as of now, it's up in the air. I just want to take a step back and not have to worry about any of it and just go back to my love of reading at its purest. I just want to be able to read book after book with no strings attached, so to speak. I'll always be looking for new reads and that's where twitter will be coming in.
Twitter is so instantaneous that it's seriously insane. I am so hooked on it that it's going to be really hard to try and cut this habit but try I will. In a way, I guess this could be my new year's resolution: to cut back on the twittering. Hah, this probably makes no sense because I said twitter's where I'll be going to for new reads and I will but at the same time, I don't want to be on it so much anymore. I don't know. I just feel like I need to take a step back from this whole other world of books. Everything and everyone.
I'll miss all of you dearly and thank you so, so, so, so much for following and reading Books Over Boys. Oh how far we've come, you and I.
Happy 2013 and here's to many, many, many new and amazing books!